Life, Love & Luck--- Unbeareble Love ek choti se love Story

Page *(two),,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, Maine usko dekha bus stop par bilkul akeli apne zindagi ki kitaabon ko lekar khadi thi, main bhi wahaan apne raaste pe aane wali gaadi ka intezar kar raha tha, sochta tha main uske paas jaakar usko kahu ki haan main woh hi “Akshay” hoon jise tum ** saal pehle aksar paa na chahti thi, haan… main who hi khwaab hoon jiske tum hamesha sapne sajaaya karti thi, main usko dekhta hi raha par meri himmat nahi hui uske paas jaane ki, kyun ki mere atit ne mujhe baandh ke rakha tha, bas uski ek zhalak mujh par pad jaye aur who daudi daudi mere paas aake mujhe seene se lagale. Main nahi jaanta tha ki uski zindagi main kitni khushi hai! par mera dil ab bhi usko apni saari khushi de dena chahta tha. Usko dekhta hoon to mere saamne wohi kavita aajati hai jise main ** saal pehle jaanta tha. Maine apne pocket main uski ek tasveer aaj bhi saja ke rakhi hai. Maine apne pocket main haath daal ke usko aaj phir bahar nikala aur usko apni bheegi hui aankho se sawaar ne laga kareeb ** minut tak main uski tasveer dekhta hi raha, aur achanak uski aawaz ne mujhko pukaara, “kya aap akshay hai na?” usi hi ki aawaz thi wohh hi aawaz thi, main jab tak apna sar utha kar uske chehre ka deedar karta usse pehle hi mere dil ke har ek taar jhilmila gaye, aisa laga jeise aaj kisi ne mujhe kayi saalo ke baad bahot gehri neend se jagaya ho aur aankhon ko phirse khuli hui rakh kar sapne sajane ko keh rahe ho jiss sapno ko main ** saal pehle toot te hue ushi aankhose dekh chuka tha. Mera dil bahot hi tez raftaar se dhadak ne laga tha. main dheeme dheeme uski taraf sar utha ke dekhne ke liye betaab ho gaya par shayad mera dil aaj bhi bahot kamjor tha, who hi aankhein phir se geeli ho gayi, maine uski taraf dekha, who ekdum bholi bhali lagti thi, uski aankhein mujhse sawaal kar rahe the, aur badi tarjub se who mujhe dekh rahi thi, main jeise usko dekhta hi gaya, usne phirse mujhe kaha “kya tum akshay ho na?” maine kaha “jee haan main who hi akshay hoon jise tum ** saal pehle jaanti thi” bas uske aage main ek labs nahi bol paya. Mujhe nahi pata tha ki mujhe itne saalo ke baad dekh kar usko khushi hui bhi ya nahi! Kyun ki uske chehre par mujhe koi bhi chinha nahi dikhayi diye bas who mujhe dekhti hi rahi. Maine usse pucha “kavita keisi ho apni zindagi main? Itne saalo ke baad mile hai kuch baatein nahi karogi?” uski aankhein mujhe is tarha dekh rahi thi jeise who mujhe yeh kehna chahti ho ki aaj tumhe dekh kar mujhe apne atit main ki hui har ek galatiyon ka ehsaas aaj hua hai, please mujhe maaf kardo! Par waqt kahaan kisi ke liye rukta hai jo humare liye bhi rukegi! Usne kahan “haan kyun nahi” aur usne apni bag niche rakhdi aur jeise maine uski aankhon main dekha usne apni nazar churali aur shayad who meri bheegi hui aankhon ka saamna nahi kar paa rahi thi, uske baad who apni palkein utha hi nahi paa rahi thi. Aaj bhi yeh dil uske liye dhadakta tha. thodi der khomoshi ke baad usne mujhse baat karne ki koshish ki, usne kaha! “aap keise hai akshay? Aap abhi bhi issi seher main rehte hai ya…!” maine usse kaha “jee haan kavita ** saal pehle jo pal maine guzare hai unhe main keise bhool sakta hoon aur main unhe bhoola kar keise is seher ko chod sakta hoon? Kheir chodo unn puraani baaton ko tum batao apne baare main! Maine suna tha ki tumhe kisi compeny main badi post par jagha mili thi aur tumhari post dusre seher main lag gayi thi! Well! Tumhaari to shaadi ho chuki hogi na! Keise hai tumhare parivaar waale?” jeise usne meri baat suni uski aankhin geeli ho gayi aur saath main uski aawaz bhi, usne kaha “haan akshay main zindagi main sirf ek hi cheez ke piche bhaagti rahi maine kabhi dusri cheezon ke baare main socha hi nahi, meri zindagi main yehi meri sabse badi bhool thi, jiski wajah se main ab bhi apne aap ko maaf nahi kar paa rahi hoon, akshay shayad tumne mujhe dekhte hi meri zindagi ki parchayi jaan li hogi, mere kapde, mera chehra, mera aaj aur mera kal, sab in saari baaton ka saboot hai” main uski baatein sunta hi raha meri aakhon se aansu jeise bahar aane ke liye tadap rahe the, par maine unhe roke rakha. Main uski saari batein samajh gaya, maine use dilasa dete hue kaha “kavita yeh duniya jitni buri hai untni hi khoobsurat bhi hai, bas humara nazariya alag hona chahiye.” Usne pehli baar meri baat sunkar meri aankho main dekha. Bas jeise maine kaha waqt kabhi kisi ke liye nahi rukta waise hi uski bus uski raftaar se aa gayi, main aaj phirse wohi daur mehsus kar raha tha jub ** saal pehle usse bichadne ke waqt hua tha, mera dil usse aaj phirse bichadna nahi chahta tha, par haalat majboor the humein bichadna to tha, maine kaha na kudrat bhi kya kya khel khelti hai, jub humein baar baar bichadna hi tha to kismat humein kyun milati hai baar baar? Bas yehi sawaal mere dil main aaj ke baad aksar aata raha. Uske jaane ka waqt ho gaya tha par shayad who bhi jaana nahi chahti thi jeise who mere inn beete hue ** saal ke baare main jaanna chahti thi, usne kaha “main chalti hoon shayad wapas hum milenge yeh mera pata hai! Kabhi baatein karne ka mann ho to aajana main tumse baatein karna chahti hoon, agar aaoge to main samjhoongi ki tumne mujhe maaf kar diya hai” bas itna bol kar usne ek parchi mere haath main thamadi, jismain use ghar ka pata tha.who apni bag le kar chali gayi mujhe phirse mudd kar wapas dekhne ki usmain shayad himmat nahi bachi thi, par uske kadam piche jaate hi mere aansu nikal pade, main wahi par toot pada, usko jaate hue dekhta raha aur who chali gayi…..

Page 3(three)............................. Main thodi der tak rota raha meri bhi bus aa gayi main ghar pahucha. Aaj mujhe aisa laga ki aaj bhi who mujhe pyar karti hai, naa jaane kyun aisa lagta tha jeise who wapas meri zindagi main aana chahti hai. Mere ghar main koi kami nahi thi kisi bhi cheez ki. ek zamana tha mere paas kuch nahi tha jub main kavita se pyar karne laga tha. main apne bedroom main jaakar khidki ke paas jaake beith gaya, aur beithe beithe apne atit main kho gaya, phirse wohi pal taaza ho gaye jub main ne kavita ko pehli baar dekha tha, jeise kal ki hi baat ho! College ka pehla dinn, main jab pehle din college gaya sab ke saath acchi dosti ho rahi thi, dheere dheere mere sab ache dost bann rahe the, maine usko college ke garden main dekha ped ke niche akeli beithi thi, main usko dekhta hi raha, jeise pari niche zameen par utar aayi ho, keise bhi kar ke main usse dosti karna chahta tha, uss waqt main yeh hi chahta tha ki main usse bas dekhta hi rahoon. Meri ek dost thi “khushi”who kavita ki bhi dost thi maine usse kaha “mujhe kavita bahot acchi lagti hai please meri dosti usse karvado!” Usne mujhe kaha “yeh sab to thik hai akshay par dosti se aage mat jaana akshay kyun ki yeh ladki tumhare laayak nahi hai” main naaraz ho gaya maine kaha “kyun aisa bol rahi ho tum? Main itna bura nahi hoon!” usne mujhe haskar samjhate hue kaha “aisi baat nahi hai akshay meri baat ka galat matlab mat samjho, main tumhari dost hoon isliye tumhara bura nahi chahungi” maine kaha “baad ki baat baad main dekhenge” usne kaha “thik hai baba kal main tumhe usse milaungi ok ? khush?” aur hum dono hunss pade. Dusre din humari dosti hui, hum ek dusre ko acchi trha to pata nahi par samajhne ki koshish karne lage, ek saal guzar gaya akhir jo nahi hona chahiye tha who hi ho gaya. Khushi ne jo karne ko nahi kaha tha who mujhse ho gaya mujhe kavita se pyar ho gaya, par maine usko kabhi yeh zaahir nahi hone diya, who dheere dheere samajhne lagi thi main usko chahta hoon, ek din usne mera haath pakad kar keh diya “I Love You akshay” main uske saamne dekhta hi raha, aur who sharmate hue mere saamne khadi thi, maine usse poocha “kya tum mazaak to nahi kar rahi na?” usne phirse sharmaate hue apne pyar ka izhaar kiya, main to jeise paagal ho gaya, pure college main bhaag ne laga, khushi ke mare main pagal ho gaya tha. Shayad who pal meri zindagi ke bahot anmol pal main se ek tha, jisko main kabhi nahi bhoola sakunga, ek aisa ehsaas ho raha tha jise main aksar paana chahta tha, main usse sacche dil se chahta tha. Par waqt na jaane kahaan se kahaan le ke jaata hai insaan ko.

Page 4(four)......................... Har insaan ko is duniya main khushi milti hai to uske baad ghum ka ehsaas bhi karna hota hai, aise hi kai modd aate hai hamaari is zindagi main, waqt kabhi ek jeisa nahi rehta usko bhi karvat badalni hoti hai, aise hi mere iss waqt ne bhi karvat badli, aur uske baad mujhe kabhi chain ki neend naseeb nahi hui, aaj bhi raat ko kavita ki aawaz mere kaano main gunjhti hai aur main neend se jaag jaata hoon….. Hamaara last year chal raha tha bas thode hi dinn reh gaye the sab ke is college main, sab ke chehre kuch ukhde ukhde se lag rahe the, main aaj college der se pahocha. Sab ek dusre ko milne ke liye betaab the, kyun ki aakhir main sabko alag jo hona tha, phir pata nahi zindagi ke kiss daur main kaun kahaan mill jaaye! Main bhi apne saare dost se mila par meri nazar kisi chehre ko dhoondh rahi thi, kavita aaj nahi dikh rahi thi, maine sab se poocha, kisi ne kaha nahi aayi, kisi ne kahaa claas room main hai, kisine kaha chali gayi…. Par maine haar nahi maani aur aakhir main who mil gayi, garden main who wohi pedd ke niche beithi thi jiss ped ke niche maine usko pehli baar dekha tha, main uske paas jaa kar beith gaya, maine usko dekha who ro rahi thi, maine usse poocha “hey dear kyun ro rahi ho ? main hamesha tumhare saat hoon na! Hum kahaan door jaa rahe hai! Ek hi seher main hai na to kabhi bhi mil payenge! Please keep smile!” usne mera haath pakda aur kahaa “haan akshay mujhe pata hai par pata nahi mujhe aisa lag raha hai aaj ki hum bichadne waale hai, dil main kahin na kahin kuch aisa mehsus ho raha hai ki bahot dar lag raha hai” maine usse kaha “mujhe pata hai aisa kyun ho raha hai who is liye ki humare saare dost humse bichadne waale hai na! Tum dekho aise ro gi to main bhi apne aansu nahi rok paunga haan.” Aur usne mere hotohon par haath rakh diya aur kaha “please aisa mat bolo dear bhagwaan na kare ki kabhi tumhe rone ka mouka bhi mile! Ok thik hai dekho main hanss rahi hoon he he he…!!!” aur who hans padi saath main main bhi zor se hanss pada. Uske baad hum ek dusre ke haatho main haath daale kayi ghanto tak wahi par beithe rahe, humne bahot si baatein ki saath main jeene marne ki kasam li, usne mere kareeb aakar kahaa “akshay kabhi mujhse juda to nahi honge na? Mera zindagi bar saath donge na? Main hamesha tumhari bankar rehna chahti hoon.” Main uski aankhon main dekhta raha jeise uski aakhein har pal mera saath mehsoos karna chahti chahti thi. Maine kahaa “haan kavita tum meri zindagi ho aur main apni zindagi se keise dur reh sakta hoon? Main apni zindagi ko hamesha apne paas rakhunga main bhi nahi chahta ki main tumse dur rahoon, main tumhare ghar baarat lekar zaroor aaunga aur tumhe apne saath le jaaunga.” Meri baat sun kar uski aakhein phirse geeli ho gayi aur mujhe bas dekhti rahi. Who pal, who din, who baatein, who aansu, who khushi, who pyar main apni is zindagi main kabhi nahi bhool sakta. Shayad yeh wohi ehsaas tha jise main paana chahta tha aur kabhi nahi bhool sakta tha… aur hum apne ghar chale gaye.

Page 5(five)................... Weise to hum roz milte the aur shaam ko bichadte the, par uss dinn bichadte hue aisa laga ki jeise mere shareer se koi hissa mujhse alag ho raha hai, main usse juda nahi hona chahta tha, dil hai na bass nahi maan raha tha, par kya kare! Uss waqt bhi haalat majboor the, humein bichadna tha, par haan kal phir milna tha, vaada jo kiya tha! ussdin ke baad raat ko jeise neend hi nahi aa rahi thi aakhein who saare sapne sajte hue dekhna chahti thi jo maine aur kavita ne saath main dekhe the, bas intezaar karna tha uss waqt ka. Insaan yeh sochta hai ki kaash uska who har sapna sach ho jaaye jo usne dekhe hai, bas sirf intezaar hota hai uss waqt ka, par waqt bhi ek aisi cheez hai jo kabhi aata hai to rukta nahi aur kabhi aata hi nahi…. Mere saath bhi kuch aisa hi hone waala tha, bas intezaar karna tha… hum dusre dinn waapas mile bas ab ek hi dinn reh gaya tha college ka. Jeise waqt guzarta gaya sab ki aakhein bheegne lagi thi. Uss waqt bhi hum pura dinn saath rahe aur kuch aise pal humne guzaare jise bhoola kar bhi nahi bhool Sakte the. Aakhir main who waqt bhi guzar gaya, aaj aakhri dinn tha, meri zindagi ka sab se yaad gar din, uss din main kavita ko le kar ek khoobsurat jagha par gaya tha, uss din kavita khush to thi par thodi udaas thi, maine kavita se kaha “pata hai main tumhe yahaan par kyun leke aaya hoon?” kavita mere saamne badi maasoom nazar se dekh rahi thi, usne apna sar hila kar mujhe kaha “nahi nahi pata par shayad aisa lag raha hai ki tum mujhe koi surprise dena chahte ho! Chalo bolo ab kyun laaye ho! Jaldi bata do!” uski isi maasumiyat par hi to main fida tha. maine kaha “haan lekin tumhe keise pata chal gaya? Hey it’s not fair ok!” aur hum dono zor se hanss pade. Maine usko kaha “chalo ab apni aakhein bandh karo aur apna haath mujhe do!” usne ishara karte hue kaha “ok ok baba yeh lo mera haath” maine uske haath main ek anguthi pehna di aur usne aakhein kholi. Who bahot khush hui usse who bahot khush hui, hum dono gale lage aur ek baar phir se ek dusre se apne pyaar ka izhaar kiya. Use khush dekh kar mera dil bhi bahot khush hota tha aisa lagta tha jeise mujhe is duniya ki har khushi mil gayi hai. Lekin har khushi ke baad ghum bhi aata hai. Yeh main pehle nahi jaanta tha, par ab jaan chuka hoon…. Aakhir main who waqt bhi apni raftaar se guzar raha tha, ab waqt tha bichadne ka. Pata nahi ab kisse kab mulaakat ho! Koi noukari par lag jaye ga to, koi buisness karega, ab kahaan kisi ke paas waqt rahega aise beith kar dosto se baatein karne ke liye. Shaam hote hi dheere dheere kavita ke chehre par ek maayusi si chane lagi thi, aur shayad mere bhi. Kyunki pata nahi ab kab kavita ghar se bahaar nikal sake aur mujhse mill sake, jab tak mujhe koi acchi naukari nahi mill jati, main uske ghar uska haath maangne keise jaa sakta tha, lekin shayad mujhe pata tha ki uske ghar main uske mummy papa yeh rishta manjur nahi karte, kyunki mera pariwaar uss mukaam pe nahi tha jiss mukaam par kavita ka pariwaar tha, main ek sadharan pariwaar se tha, mere papa mil main naukari karte the, aur kavita ke papa ek safal buisness man the, jisse humara koi rishta kaayam nahi ho sakta tha, uski bhi ek wajha thi, yehi ki yeh duniya main ab sab cheez peiso se tola jaata hai, chahe who baazar main bikne waali koi cheez ho ya phir do dilo ke pyar se bhare ehsaas ka rishta ho! Kisi ko koi fark nahi dikhai deta in dono cheez main. Phir bhi main is duniya se ladne ke liye khada tha mere pyar ke kiye, chahe kuch bhi ho jaaye, main apna pyar nibha kar rahoonga. Yeh hi soch thi meri, maine kabhi kisi ke baare main galat nahi socha tha, shayad is liye ki mujhe galat sochana aata hi nahi tha…. Kavita mere paas aayi mujhe kaha “ akshay main tumhe milungi jab bhi bahar nikal ne ka mauka milega main tumhe bata dungi, tum maayus mat hona ok!” maine usse kaha “kavita kya main ek baat poochu tumse?” usne apna sar anumati dete hue upar niche hilaya. Maine kaha “ kavita agar yeh duniya humein saath na de humein milne main to kya tum mera saath to nahi chodogi na?” kavita meri baat sun kar ekdum si dar gayi aur uski aakhein bhar aayi, usne kaha “please akshay aisa mat bolo maine hamesha tumhare saath hoon, tum aisa kyun sochte ho ki main nahi saath dungi tumhe? Mujhe pata hai tum aisa kyun bol rahe ho isiliye na kyunki mere ghar waalw tumhe accept nahi karenge! Kuch bhi ho jaaye main hamesha tumara saath dungi, marte dum tak mere hothon par sirf tumhara hi naam hoga” maine usko sine se laga liya aur kaha “saath dena hi hai to marne ki baat mat karo kavita, main nahi chahta ki meri kavita itni kamzor ho jo marne ki baatein kare!” bass uss din bhi bichadne ka waqt ho gaya, waqt to jeise bahot tez chal raha tha, jeise ki kal ki hi baat ho humein mile hue….. Who apne ghar chali gayi, main usko uss waqt bhi aise hi jaate hue dekhta raha jeise aaj maine usko 10 saal ke baad dekha tha, uske jaane ke baad naa jaane ek darr sa mere dil me hamesha rehta hai, jise main aaj bhi mehsoos karta hoon…

Page 6 .................................... Takdeer bhi keise keise karvat badalti hai. Jahaan bhi naukari ke liye gaya bas rishvat ki hi maang hoti thi, ab is bhrastaachaar ke zamane main koi bhi kaam rishvat ke bina nahi hota hai. Kai thokare kha kha kar main naukari ki talaash main dar badar ghumta raha, par kisi ko is deegre se kuch lena dena nahi tha, unko matlab tha to bass in kaagaz ke tukdose. Kavita ke phone aksar aate rehte the hum kai der tak baatein karte rehte. Ab bhi who mandir jaane ke bahaane mujhse roz milti thi, haan par itna waqt nahi milta tha jitna humein pehle college ke dino me milta tha. phir bhi humein koi shiqwa nahi tha is chote se waqt se. aise main 6 mahine kahaan guzar gaye pata hi nahi chala, ab mujhe kuch bhi kar ke naukari dhoondhni thi, kyun ki main ab jyada doori mehsus karna nahi chahta tha apni zindagi se. hum ab dheere dheere kam milne lage the, par haan hum phone par roz baatein karte, kuch hi dino main kavita ko ek bahot hi acchi si office main naukari mil gayi, uski naukari bhi bahot acchi thi wahaan usko apne kaam ka vetan bhi accha khaasa mil jaata tha, par uska kaam jyada rehta tha, is liye kabhi kabhi phone nahi karti thi, main us waqt bhi naukari ki talaash main tha. ab mujhe dheere dheere apne aap par sharm aane lagi thi kya main kisi ke laayak nahi jo mujhe koi naukari nahi dena chahta! Mere papa mujhe honsla dete the aue kehte the “beta apne aap ko sambhaalna sikho, tum aise itne jaldi haar maan longe to kya hoga? Abhi to tumhare paas bahot waqt hai is khoobsurat zindagi ko jeene ke liye, aaj nahi to kal tumhe naukari mil hi jaayegi, bas tum haar mat maan na, aur yeh kyun bhool jaate ho ki tum mere bete ho jo kabhi haarna nahi sikha!” papa jab bhi mujhe aisa kuch kehte to mera honsla badh jata aur phirse naye din ki shuruaat karta naukari dhoodhne ke liye nikal padta. Maine apne pariwaar main kabhi kisise kuch nahi chupaya tha isliye maine unse apni koi baat nahi chupayi, maine meri aur kavita ke rishte ke baare main unko sab bata diya tha, aur unko bhi is rishte se koi aitraaz nahi tha, maine unko jab humare aur kavita ke pariwaar ke faaslon ke baare main bataya to unho ne kaha “dekho bete yeh ek aisa rishta hai jo do dilo ko mila ta hai, is main koi bhi aadmi kitni bhi kimat lagale par who is rishte ko peiso se kabhi khareed nahi sakta, is rishte ko sirf pyar se khareeda jaa sakta hai, aur jiske paas pyar ho who hi is duniya ka sabse dhanwaan insaan hota hai, paisa to rishte ko kam karta hai, par pyar rishte ko badhata hai, is liye yaad rakhna ki is duniya main pyar se badi daulat aur kuch bhi nahi hai” uss din papa ki baat sunkar aisa laga main kitna khush naseeb hoon ki mujhe kavita ke pyar ke saath apne maa baap ke pyar ki daulat bhi mujhe mili hai…. Waqt guzarta gaya aur mera aur kavita ka faasla bhi badhta gaya, ab hum milte nahi the kyun ki kavita kehti thi usko bahot kaam milta hai office main,is wajah se who mil nahi paati. Par haan hum phone par roz baatein karte the. Aise hi main roz naukari ki talaash main aur kavita apne kaam main kahin ghum ho jaate the. Aisa lagta tha jeise main koi jung lad raha hoon apni naukari ke liye, par haan zindagi bhi to ek jung hi hai na, koun kab kahaan dusman ban jaaye aur kaun kab kahaan dost banjaaye, kab koun haar jaaye aur kab jeet jaaye, yeh kisiko nahi pata. Aise hi naukari dhundhte dhundhte mujhe aakhir main naukari mil gayi, aur who bhi ek bahot badi company main badi jagha par. Aakhir me bhagvaan ne meri baat sun hi li. Keise keise karvat badalti hai takdeer who maine naukari milne se kuch pal pehle mehsus kiya, naukari bhi mili to kiss tarha! Uski bhi shuruaat ek haadse se hui, hasi aa jati hai mujhje kya kismat hai meri…

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